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Day: 8-1-96This was supposed to be the "big day" of yore, when JM online would burst fully-born into the electronic universe, but alas, life has a way of derailing even the most perfect-seeming plan. Not that I didn't add lots of new stuff to the site today, but my attentions were largely elsewhere. I tried to distract the yearnings of my heart with [Supercop] and my daily magazine reading at the Berkeley Main Library, but my focus quickly returned to that which I wanted, yet could not have.
The mail had lots of pleasant surprises for me today, but the letter that I had been waiting for from Alisyn only increased the longing. It goes without saying that she's more than sweet, and that the present situation is wonderfully difficult to live with. Wonderful because she's still shining, she's still there; difficult because she's there and not here. Alas, some things just are, and I've already stressed enough over what could have been, yet won't be - yet.
For some reason I've been very focused on the new [Enormous] album today; funny how some things grow on you with a vengeance - last week I wouldn't have imagined listening to it 5 times in one day, but that's exactly what happened. Something about Eden's voice... I can't quite place it, but the way she slurs every other word just rubs me the right way.
The only other highlights of my day were typical yet satisfying - letters from dear friends were sent and written, and I had more than my share of time to pore over the weekly free newspapers (which may sound dull, yet always gets my heart and brain working).
As initial entries go this one is rather disappointing, but I'm sure things will pick up as the days go on. This is the second time that I've attempted a daily journal, but the former experiment was personal to a fault, which I don't think I'll be able to manage in such a public forum as this one. Nevertheless, I won't be surprised if I loosen up in future entries, and just write things as they are, instead of how I want them to appear to be.
I'm also going to share as many of my dreams as possible, both to add chaotic interest and insight, as well as give me an excuse to pay more attention to my nocturnal narratives. Knowing how busy I am, I'll probably write something each night and update this file every couple of days, so if you actually find my life interesting (even in its tedium), then make sure to come back once a week or so for the latest entries.
Anyway, that's it for now. Here's hoping that August turns out better than July...
Day: The Rest of August (sorry!)
Alas, the best laid plans blah blah blah... I was having too much fun and strife and life in general during August to spend time each night writing bits and pieces about me and mine, especially considering the fact that way too many things happened for me to adequately convey to you the specifics about what was up. That said, I'm totally red-faced and teary- eyed (well, not quite, but I'm going to try better during September).
In any case, some of the real highlights of August have been (in a somewhat particular order):
1) Communicating with all of the people I love and adore - they know exactly who they are, which is how I like it.Anyway...2) Getting to go up to Olympia, WA, to visit my dear friends Veronika and Maricela, not to mention getting into many fine adventures along the way (Randi and AAA - you rule absolutely!) Yes, I whole-heatedly recommend Amtrak for all of your West Coast trips (if you can afford the "luxury" of not getting any sleep and paying extra for the privilege). This highlight fits in rather nicely with...
3) Promoting JM in any and all ways possible, which up until recently wasn't my real priority. Sure, I've always done the best I could with my work, but I was loathe to actively waggle my wares in people faces, going "Lookie here, stuff, things and junk!" But in the end what I did accomplish in the benefit of JM was enough for some neato, positive recognition to finally come my way, specifically during the weeks surrounding my trip northward. I participated in the Kill Zinesters tour in Portland, SF and Berkeley (even got to ride in the mythical motor home - pretty spiffy, in a small sort of way) and had a great time meeting other publishing types. I finished JM 1.5, and have received lots of great and supportive comments thus far. I even got this web site in a simulcrum of working order (in the end you'll bet the judge of that, I suppose). Basically I'm starting to enjoy not just the creative process, but actual tasty fruits there from.
4) Working for the Infoshop and with the Berkeley/Oakland Free Skool made me feel like I was actually doing something for once to back up my intellectual swagger. You'll be hearing more about both in the near future, but sufficed to say that I spent more time and energy volunteering this summer than I did at work in the computer lab in the first half of 1996. OK, so maybe not, but you get the point.
5) Saw lots of movies, scored tons of music, met the Apples in Stereo and Neutral Milk Hotel (a privilege both times), did this and that, slept some, turned 24, walked a lot and basically did the things that I do with as much style as I allowed myself to enjoy. Which is more than in the recent past; it seems that I'm finally starting to re-loosen up and actively seek the more enjoyable and sociable aspects of life again.
6) Got to meet my buddy Jeanette in person and read in front of a real life bookstore audience, all in the same night! Hell yeah!
7) Other things which you'll just have to imagine for yourself, sorry. Privacy has been known to spontaneously occur every so often.
August is dead! Gone forever to calendar heaven, and no complaints here. As for September.... I promise to do my best to do my duty to serve and protect the needs and interests of my web-based audience by supplying mountains of life dirt with which we all may construct fine fictions and facts that pertain to this fine Junk Magnet of ours.
That said, blah blah blah I'm tired, scroll.
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